There were many times that I kept thinking of myself how did it come to such an end and I have many times wondered what really happen. Well its not something new that I have come to know or had come to realize. Its something expected from the very beginning, but it just sucks to hear the truth out that hoping that its not. Everything came to an end simply because of the repetition of an act. A text message. And where that messages came from? My hand, my mind and my phone. So it ended because of me? Yea, makes sense.
Well, not like there are people who checks this blog out so I could actually just write how I really feel about it. First of all, I think I'm the one who should be the one saying sorry since it has to come to an end like this. I have always believed that if someone chooses to leave their partner/bf/gf/soulmate or whatever it is called, its simply because the other half just isn't good enough. Sorry for being imperfect, not like I can help it. Sorry to had irritated you and never thought that it could just spoil your vacation just like that. Sorry.
Hearing it out today makes me ponder more that it is not the first person saying that it is a possibility that I text (you) too often. I really dunno anymore how do you actually felt, (I agree with Irene that love is not a feeling, its more than that) but to me, you meant the world to be all along from day 1 till it was over. And perhaps you really do still mean much to me but its just that I will just have to walk forward and stop looking behind.
Being able to let everything else to be with you, if i could do that, surely I'll be able to let go of you and gain something new. Maybe not now, but soon to come perhaps. Truth has always been something painful to listen but somehow what I hear today was just directly painful that I could finally blame myself for what happened. Tears just came down streaming like a river and cool, its stopping already. So the truth comes, it hurts, and its over. Good to know the truth.
Lets talk bout another truth that perhaps (you) may think I wasn't serious. I had always loved (you) since day 1. And perhaps this will be the one last time I would state it out. I love you. A little contradictory but I'm able to move on, eyes are finally able to set on another person instead of shutting off everyone around me. Does my heart really has the space for someone new? Perhaps perhaps, who could be the unlucky one thou. Stated this yesterday but once again it goes, I'm glad at least it happened before. =)
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Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Reminiscence
This gonna be the first post which is non related to the series and I think I actually lost that inspiration to write again. Well, no readers memang la tada semangat.
There are many things and incidents that takes place through out the life of every human being. In the cycle of life in the form of a human, death is what awaits us. And towards this end, every incident that happen is something to remember about. Every individual has a past in which means memories of incidents that has taken place.
Whether it is a memorable one, one that it is impossible to forget, a great one, a bad one or even unimportant ones, it is locked up inside our memory cage. There are things that has taken place in my life through out this past year and how it actually changed my life and turning it upside down. Painful memory it is, sweet memory it is and unforgettable memory it is.
A few days back, there was a comparison between two songs by Plain White T's on which made higher in the US Chart, Hey There Delilah and also 1,2,3,4. Everyone on the radio that gave response was saying that its obvious that Hey There Delilah is the one that has reached the higher level but however it turned out that 1,2,3,4 was higher. 34 to 32. Close enough. Its pretty amazing that this 2 songs were really good songs and does remind me of a lot of stuff and honestly, I knew 1,2,3,4 would had gotten higher. A cheesy yet really sweet song.
When I first checked out this song was when someone actually posted it out and saying how cute it is. And true enough, it was really cute. It was then that I actually asked was that song for me. That look on that face when she took up the guitar and sing it to my face, its irreplaceable and too valuable to describe. Moments like this perhaps would just happened once in a life time. Its kinda funny thou, 8 months after I heard this song, it finally came out on radio. And people loving it.
Just a simple song that has been played through out an eventful moment of a person's life could bring out a box full of memories whenever it is played. Amazing isn't it how a song can actually impact a person's life. Reminds of how it begins, how it grew, how it was uncertain and how it ended. Reminiscence through a song. Well this isn't a emo post. Its just saying about, memories of the past, is just something to emo on.
What I'm saying here is, whatever happened in the past has happened and it will always be reminded. But what really is important is, what am I gonna do about my life now? How am I gonna plan my moves ahead? There's a reason why are eyes placed in front and not behind. Its for us to look ahead and not backwards. Memories oh memories, let it to continue to play in my head and to bring up a smile up my face that it all happened before.
There are many things and incidents that takes place through out the life of every human being. In the cycle of life in the form of a human, death is what awaits us. And towards this end, every incident that happen is something to remember about. Every individual has a past in which means memories of incidents that has taken place.
Whether it is a memorable one, one that it is impossible to forget, a great one, a bad one or even unimportant ones, it is locked up inside our memory cage. There are things that has taken place in my life through out this past year and how it actually changed my life and turning it upside down. Painful memory it is, sweet memory it is and unforgettable memory it is.
A few days back, there was a comparison between two songs by Plain White T's on which made higher in the US Chart, Hey There Delilah and also 1,2,3,4. Everyone on the radio that gave response was saying that its obvious that Hey There Delilah is the one that has reached the higher level but however it turned out that 1,2,3,4 was higher. 34 to 32. Close enough. Its pretty amazing that this 2 songs were really good songs and does remind me of a lot of stuff and honestly, I knew 1,2,3,4 would had gotten higher. A cheesy yet really sweet song.
When I first checked out this song was when someone actually posted it out and saying how cute it is. And true enough, it was really cute. It was then that I actually asked was that song for me. That look on that face when she took up the guitar and sing it to my face, its irreplaceable and too valuable to describe. Moments like this perhaps would just happened once in a life time. Its kinda funny thou, 8 months after I heard this song, it finally came out on radio. And people loving it.
Just a simple song that has been played through out an eventful moment of a person's life could bring out a box full of memories whenever it is played. Amazing isn't it how a song can actually impact a person's life. Reminds of how it begins, how it grew, how it was uncertain and how it ended. Reminiscence through a song. Well this isn't a emo post. Its just saying about, memories of the past, is just something to emo on.
What I'm saying here is, whatever happened in the past has happened and it will always be reminded. But what really is important is, what am I gonna do about my life now? How am I gonna plan my moves ahead? There's a reason why are eyes placed in front and not behind. Its for us to look ahead and not backwards. Memories oh memories, let it to continue to play in my head and to bring up a smile up my face that it all happened before.
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